August 20, 2009

• Reality Check and Question Answered for Apocatastasis

  Apocatastasis

  I see several indications in the reality check spread of impending change:  a ten adjacent to a reversed ace (completion of one cycle, and another ready to begin); Kings at both crown and base, with the one at the base reversed (symbolizing a potential, not yet manifest); and the only Major Trumps in the spread are opposite each other on the same level, reversed (again, something existing in potential), with both cards symbolically related to change or unstable situations.

  King of Stones in the Crown position, denoting where you are on your spiritual path, suggests a concrete, earthy, materialistic and pragmatic view of or approach to spiritual matters, and/or some adamant, stubbornly held beliefs.  King of Pears reversed at the base indicates a potential shift to a more intuitive approach and more fluid, flexible perspective.

  Two cards in the suit of Stones, denoting the Earth element (physical matters or material things) are on the material level of the spread.  Four on the left side and six in the center indicate that the worst of an ongoing crisis is past, but you drag it out through negative expectations.  The reversed Ace of Serpents (suit of elemental Fire, spirit, energy, creativity) on the right indicates that inspiration and/or creative action can potentially provide a solution and way out of the crisis.

  The next level up:  feelings, emotions and relationships, has the two of Serpents on the left, suggesting that your discontent stems from difficulty at the beginning of a cycle of spiritual experience or a creative endeavor.  It is as if you took the first step and ran into an obstacle.  The ten of Blades opposite that two suggests that you have reached an intellectual plateau or anticlimax, and that this (probably an awareness that you can neither go back nor stay where you are) gives you the motivation to keep trying to break through that initial obstacle on the new path.  Seven of Pears (suit of alchemical Water, emotions, intuition) in the center indicates emotional growth, progress, and improvement in interpersonal relations.

    Flanking the King of Stones on the top level (spirit), are the two reversed Major cards:  Changer on the left and Hanging Man on the right.  Changer represents an Aquarian Age evolution of the old Magician.  In this placement and the reversed position, it suggests that impediments to spiritual progress exist in reluctance or conceptual inability to own and exercise your creative power, to consciously co-create your reality.

    The reversal of the card on the right or “positive” side means that the ideas symbolized by this card are what you need to understand and internalize in order to progress further on your spiritual path.  Essentially, this man is hung up between past and future.  One foot is stuck in the past, while the other just lightly rests on the future, uncertain about what lies ahead, hesitant to move on.  Nostalgia gets you nowhere, but keeps you in discomfort and sadness — and not just you but everyone to whom you are attached, by their bonds or your own.

  Synthesizing both these Major cards, what is needed to get moving is more openness, courage, curiosity, confidence, conscious action instead of unconscious creation  — in other words, more acting from intention and less reactivity.  Before you can exercise your full power, you must realize it is yours and trust yourself to use it.

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  Your question concerned the “troubled dynamic” in your relationship with your mother.  For this reading, I’m using a 21-card Gypsy spread (also called Horseshoe Spread) and the Golden Dawn Tarot.

  Your part of this “dynamic” comes essentially from the fact that you didn’t come into this life as a blank slate.  You possess wisdom gained in past lives, and you carry expectations born of those other experiences.  These expectations are unreasonable given your present circumstances, but that doesn’t make them any less compelling.

  Your mother, of course, knows nothing of this.  She fights you.  She responds to your need for autonomy by trying harder to control you.  She expects, consciously and self-righteously, as the elder, the kind of deference and subservience from you that your past experiences lead you to unconsciously expect from the world.  She reacts with sterner repression if you rebel against her.  Conflict escalates.

  She loves you with all her heart and understands you not at all.  In fact, there’s a lot about this reality that she fails to understand. The soul connection that might resolve your conflicts just doesn’t exist.  Matters of the soul, and beliefs about soul matters, are further sources of conflict between you.  Her father or father-figure was controlling and domineering, which impaired her emotional development.  You expect her to display emotional maturity she doesn’t possess, while she wants things from you that you can’t give and she has no right to demand.

  You need to be concerned more with yourself and your own “dynamic” than with your mother or any of your other relationships.  It is time for you to own your power and begin to attain your creative potential.  The fifth section of this spread echoes the theme of the reality check, above.  Your current material circumstances:  work, home, lifestyle, habits, etc., are acting like a cork in a bottle, a dam across a stream, a lid on a boiling pot.  I don’t see your conflicts easing or a ticket to paradise dropping into your lap, but things do have to change.  As the other spread indicated, the current situation is unstable.

  To make the kind of break that will work to your advantage, don’t think too much about it.  You could spend the rest of your life weighing pros and cons.  If you don’t make the move toward the monastery soon, you might find yourself committed to another course, and never make it.  If it is what you truly desire, now is the time.

  technical notes: I.a.Death b. Hermit c. Emperor
  II.a.Temperance R b.Justice R c.9 Swords
  III.a.Princess Swords R b.3 Cups c.9 Wands R
  IV.a.Princess Cups b.Queen Pentacles c.King Pentacles
  V.a.King Wands b.Ace Wands c.9 Pentacles R
  VI.a. 7 Pentacles R b.6 Swords c.10 Pentacles
  VII.a.Ace Cups  b.2 Swords R c.6 Cups

  

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